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The Sea


There is a sea that covers the land with waves that  crash to and fro. 
Back and forth and back again leaving behind beauty or destruction.
Above the waters the clouds thicken, casting a shadow over head.

The sea cannot see the storm, it has no mind with that.
Though the waves crash harder with the darkening sky,
the sea continues to leave debris and swallow up the dead.
“Look out, the Storm’s ahead, a fire is in the sky!”
The waves just crash and go with the flow
barely retreating as the storm thunders by.

An emptiness fills the birds above as they watch the water’s vortex.
While thunder roars across the sky with lightening on its path,
The sea cannot hear
It does not care that these clouds will bring great wrath.

Instead the sea just flows back and forth
with clovers round the edges.
Doing what the sea does best, moving sand within the ball.

Psalm 14:2
YHWH looked down from heaven upon the children of men,
to see if there were any that did understand, and seek YHWH.




It begins with characters in their places
Within the illusion of many faces
How happily they walk right in
Into the circus tents of sin
Disguised as places of peace and rest
To take spirits and dollars to the crest
Amidst the damning of the soul
Can’t you see the ultimate goal…

You sin against us they say to me
But I won’t hang from that death tree
So cry foul all the lost
I say to you, “At what cost!”
I say again, “At what cost!”

So again I ask.
Who is in control of what!

Announcement for the Daughters of YHWH


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The Call

Who is in control of what? (repost)


To begin.  The internet journey amidst life findings can be quite fascinating.  Through all my years online, I have often ended up on sites that I particularly wasn’t even searching for.  I remember getting online somewhere around 1990 and all this “crazy” information was staring me in the face. Things I was not interested in, for I just wanted to chat with new people and have fun online.  Research?  What was THAT?  No,no, no!  I was young, rebellious and had a fire inside that did not like a lot of the ways of the world by what I viewed, this is true!   However the idea of online?  Use it as a tool?  For certain things yes…but admittedly, not my cup of tea for my first years.  Nope nope nope!

This particular information that I am about to share has often come before me.  Along with many items regarding freemasonry, satanism, deceptions on the media etc.   My initial reactions, way back in the early 90’s was….get this junk off my computer.  Yet, it continued to somehow surface before my eyes.  After time, I realized, maybe it was Creator trying to reveal something to me as I was not seeking out such information.  I was a young mother.  What did I want to know about evil things?  I wanted fun things for my kids to enjoy while I was on the computer.  Heck, I even used to use the art programs to print out my own Disney artwork that I would spend hours on as I drew each pixel.  My best one…Simba that I copied from a bandaid box.  Yes, that was my idea of using a computer.  “Look kids at what Mom made you!”

Here is an example of items that would somehow magically appear on my screen,  along with the link of this particular article.  I do not promote the website as I find many mixed findings and some proven falsities within their pages.  However, this particular page is quite interesting and may open some eyes to who is in control of what in this world we live in.

One item stands out as a person listens to the International Bankers and reads their books. They believe money is what makes the world go round. If you have money, you can do anything. Money is “God”,and it is worshipped and served. (My note…in G we trust on the dollar bill) Even after these families accumulate more than can be spent, these devotees continue selling their souls for this false but powerful god. The great poet-philosopher Heinrich Heine (a Banker’s son) said, “Money is the god of our time, and Rothschild is his prophet.”Following the cue of the Rothschilds, Heinrich Heme, a Jew, signed his name by drawing a Seal of Solomon. Amsel Rothschild is reported to have said, “Give me control of the economics of a country; and I care not who makes her laws.  Today his descendents meet twice daily in London to dictate to the world what the world price of gold will be. They also dictate what the “Federal Reserve System” will do with America’s finances.

In the next tidbit I am about to share, the exposing of Disney comes into play.  As most of us grew up watching Disney as parents and grandparents alike always felt  “Disney is safe for our children to watch!”  I know I was thrown in front of the TV every Sunday evening for Disney Movie time as a child.  And, I myself, am guilty of doing the same to my children through buying videos such as Little Mermaid and Aladdin for my daughters when they were young. Along with toys, video games, stuffed animals etc.   And though, I did catch certain subliminals, I  assumed either I was the pig or I must have been imagining things.  Brushing it off, like most of us do.  Yet, again, somehow Disney kept coming before my eyes as foul when I was not seeking to learn about it.  I did pay attention to the Disney articles and websites exposing them.  Therefore, Disney is no longer allowed in our household and hasn’t been for years.  All my children are aware of subliminal messaging and underlying messages.  Now that they are older, their eyes can see far more than most of their friends can.  Sadly, for our youngest, her friends cannot see past “That is SO COOL!” thus, she will share with me things she has seen and what bothered her.  (Even if she did enjoy what she saw.)

Here is an exerpt from the same site in The Disney Bloodline

Programming Deceptions

In the programming, colors and directions are used. Be prepared to find out. that sometime programmers use their creative imaginations such as using the color “octarine,” or the direction “TURNWISE” or perhaps “WIDDERSHINS”. During the most fundament programming which is done via LSD trips in sensory deprivation tank to lay in foundations of the Alpha, Beta, Delta, Ome and Theta programs, each programming memory will be given a code. Where one popular programming deception takes place that the programmer knows ahead of time h to sequence his memory codes so that instance, the fifth memory is coded as trip, and strenuous methods are used to up the memories of the first four trips. victim’s s mind will be told to forget the four trips. The memory codes are deceptively designed to fool the deprogrammer and the victim alike. Part of the reason the programmer does this, is that they know that IF a therapist should stumble onto these first memories, the backup programming to protect these memories is so severe that the therapist will shatter the victim’s mind. Backup programs such as Atom bombs and vegetable programming are locked into place to protect the fundamental programs.

The article in its entirety can be read at this link

But here is the one item that has appeared before my eyes many times without me hunting it down. The first time I saw it, my reaction was…”What a load of bricks!  This is Sick!!!” (Get off the page and Fast!  Don’t show me that kind of hoopla ever again!!!)  The second time I saw it, it shook me.  I remember staring at it and thinking, how the heck did this come in front of me again?  And as I read each line, I had an ill feeling.  Like the first time, I discarded it but it did haunt me.  The third time it came before my eyes, I paid very close attention. For I saw many items listed already surfacing.  For I was quite ignorant in my youth.  Though rebellious of many ways of the world, I knew I was seeing many horrible things come to pass.   Then of course when I realized many years later that this was truly coming into play, I had the most difficult time trying to find it!  I am most certain this fell before my eyes many years before 2002.  For I had seen it before I left the USA in 2000.  I remember speaking with people about it and saying, “I can’t believe what I keep seeing!”

Therefore, I will just share the plan in its entirety with you all. I had saved it a few years back after hunting for it.  And I mean HUNTED for it!  (Oddly after it had so easily come to me before…hah!)

You can decide on your own what you will believe about this.  It has been shared throughout many agenda websites and promoted by those whom I do not follow nor have an iota of faith in what they say…however, I had seen this many years before it became a fire throughout the internet.

[Note:] I had to track down the original that came to me, as the initial document that I posted on here had several items missing from their “List” that someone apparently edited out for their site. I do not know why someone would exclude certain items, however, they did.

The Secret Covenant

“An illusion it will be, so large, so vast it will escape their perception.

Those who will see it will be thought of as insane. We will create separate fronts to prevent them from seeing the connection between us. We will behave as if we are not connected to keep the illusion alive. Our goal will be accomplished one drop at a time so as to never bring suspicion upon ourselves. This will also prevent them from seeing the changes as they occur.

“We will always stand above the relative field of their experience for we know the secrets of the absolute. We will work together always and will remain bound by blood and secrecy. Death will come to he who speaks.

“We will keep their lifespan short and their minds weak while pretending to do the opposite. We will use our knowledge of science and technology in subtle ways so they will never see what is happening. We will use soft metals, aging accelerators and sedatives in food and water, also in the air. They will be blanketed by poisons everywhere they turn.

The soft metals will cause them to lose their minds. We will promise to find a cure from our many fronts, yet we will feed them more poison. The poisons will be absorbed through their skin and mouths, they will destroy their minds and reproductive systems. From all this, their children will be born dead, and we will conceal this information.

The poisons will be hidden in everything that surrounds them, in what they drink, eat, breathe and wear. We must be ingenious in dispensing the poisons for they can see far. We will teach them that the poisons are good, with fun images and musical tones. Those they look up to will help. We will enlist them to push our poisons.

“They will see our products being used in film and will grow accustomed to them and will never know their true effect. When they give birth we will inject poisons into the blood of their children and convince them its for their help. We will start early on, when their minds are young, we will target their children with what children love most, sweet things.

When their teeth decay we will fill them with metals that will kill their mind and steal their future. When their ability to learn has been affected, we will create medicine that will make them sicker and cause other diseases for which we will create yet more medicine. We will render them docile and weak before us by our power. They will grow depressed, slow and obese, and when they come to us for help, we will give them more poison.

“We will focus their attention toward money and material goods so they many never connect with their inner self. We will distract them with fornication, external pleasures and games so they may never be one with the oneness of it all. Their minds will belong to us and they will do as we say. If they refuse we shall find ways to implement mind-altering technology into their lives.

We will use fear as our weapon. We will establish their governments and establish opposites within. We will own both sides. We will always hide our objective but carry out our plan. They will perform the labor for us and we shall prosper from their toil.

“Our families will never mix with theirs. Our blood must be pure always, for it is the way. We will make them kill each other when it suits us. We will keep them separated from the oneness by dogma and religion. We will control all aspects of their lives and tell them what to think and how. We will guide them kindly and gently letting them think they are guiding themselves.

We will foment animosity between them through our factions. When a light shall shine among them, we shall extinguish it by ridicule, or death, whichever suits us best. We will make them rip each other’s hearts apart and kill their own children. We will accomplish this by using hate as our ally, anger as our friend. The hate will blind them totally, and never shall they see that from their conflicts we emerge as their rulers.

They will be busy killing each other. They will bathe in their own blood and kill their neighbors for as long as we see fit.

“We will benefit greatly from this, for they will not see us, for they cannot see us. We will continue to prosper from their wars and their deaths. We shall repeat this over and over until our ultimate goal is accomplished. We will continue to make them live in fear and anger though images and sounds. We will use all the tools we have to accomplish this. The tools will be provided by their labor. We will make them hate themselves and their neighbors.

“We will always hide the divine truth from them, that we are all one. This they must never know! They must never know that color is an illusion, they must always think they are not equal. Drop by drop, drop by drop we will advance our goal. We will take over their land, resources and wealth to exercise total control over them. We will deceive them into accepting laws that will steal the little freedom they will have. We will establish a money system that will imprison them forever, keeping them and their children in debt.

“When they shall ban together, we shall accuse them of crimes and present a different story to the world for we shall own all the media. We will use our media to control the flow of information and their sentiment in our favor. When they shall rise up against us we will crush them like insects, for they are less than that. They will be helpless to do anything for they will have no weapons.

“We will recruit some of their own to carry out our plans, we will promise them eternal life, but eternal life they will never have for they are not of us. The recruits will be called “initiates” and will be indoctrinated to believe false rites of passage to higher realms. Members of these groups will think they are one with us never knowing the truth.

[Note:] notice they even mock the Illuminati/Freemasons in the above quotation.

They must never learn this truth for they will turn against us. For their work they will be rewarded with earthly things and great titles, but never will they become immortal and join us, never will they receive the light and travel the stars. They will never reach the higher realms, for the killing of their own kind will prevent passage to the realm of enlightenment. This they will never know.

The truth will be hidden in their face, so close they will not be able to focus on it until its too late. Oh yes, so grand the illusion of freedom will be, that they will never know they are our slaves.

“When all is in place, the reality we will have created for them will own them. This reality will be their prison. They will live in self-delusion. When our goal is accomplished a new era of domination will begin. Their minds will be bound by their beliefs, the beliefs we have established from time immemorial.

“But if they ever find out they are our equal, we shall perish then. THIS THEY MUST NEVER KNOW. If they ever find out that together they can vanquish us, they will take action. They must never, ever find out what we have done, for if they do, we shall have no place to run, for it will be easy to see who we are once the veil has fallen. Our actions will have revealed who we are and they will hunt us down and no person shall give us shelter.

“This is the secret covenant by which we shall live the rest of our present and future lives, for this reality will transcend many generations and life spans. This covenant is sealed by blood, our blood. We, the ones who from heaven to earth came.”

“This covenant must NEVER, EVER be known to exist.

It must NEVER, EVER be written or spoken of for if it is, the consciousness it will spawn will release the fury of the PRIME CREATOR upon us and we shall be cast to the depths from whence we came and remain there until the end time of infinity itself.” [End]

Being it came as it did to me, without even looking, it makes me wonder.  For so much of this has come to pass.  The foods, the air, the water, medicine, etc.

All I know is this.  Through my years in this world, I have watched so many changes for the worse.  It saddens me to see how blind so many are to what is happening before our very eyes.  I can’t scream through a mega phone…people…open your eyes and See!  I wish sometimes I could.  Many of us who try to share what we have learned get scoffed.  Even if it is the most simplest of matters.  For opinions differ greatly.  When evidence is shown, the best line becomes, “Oh, you got that from the internet, you can’t trust any source online”  or the famous, “I didn’t see that on the news, so it can’t be true”. (sigh)

… everything on the earth has a purpose, every disease a herb to cure it, and every person a mission. This is the Indian theory of existence.

Mourning Dove – Salish

So, the question is…Who is in control of what?

The answer lies within.

Malachi 2:17
Ye have wearied YHWH with your words.
Yet ye say, Wherein have we wearied him?
When ye say, Every one that doeth evil is good in the sight of YHWH,
and he delighteth in them; or, Where is the Elohim of judgment?


The Ancient…


…is mentioned many times in Scripture.
I implore everyone to go through each passage that has the word ancient in it.
I have offered up a few here to begin with.
You may be surprised to also find Who is also called Ancient.
(For those who are unaware)
Besides the old men, besides old ways, there are several passages that hint at Ancient wisdom,
however it may not be what you may initially believe.

Isaiah 9:15
The ancient and honourable,
he is the head;
and the prophet that teacheth lies,
he is the tail.

Anyone who reads scripture regularly should automatically know who the Head is.

Isaiah 3:5
And the people shall be oppressed,
every one by another,
and every one by his neighbour:
the child shall behave himself proudly against the ancient,
and the base against the honourable.

*Many will say a child will disrespect an elder…yes, this is also true, however the deeper meaning reveals that the Child…(Born of YHWH) will behave himself Proudly against the Ancient (YHWH).
Modern day rebellion against YHWH- is a problem of phenomenal proportion!

Isaiah 45:21
Tell ye, and bring them near;
yea, let them take counsel together:
who hath declared this from ancient time?
who hath told it from that time?
have not I YHWH?
and there is NO Elohim else BESIDE me;
a just El and a Saviour; there is NONE BESIDES ME.

*Modern worship includes idols of many names, faces, crosses, many arms, incense burning, candle lighting, different religions each have their statues etc. People will behave unruly, rashly and rebel against the very words they claim to defend by following modern day teachings and altered ancient teachings.

Jeremiah 18:15
Because my people hath forgotten me,
they have burned incense to vanity,
and they have caused them to stumble in their ways from the ancient paths,
to walk in paths, in a way not cast up;

*This should be self explanatory, but for the newer in understanding, incense burned in censers during liturgies, modern day preaching, partying in cut stone churches with steps,  preaching feel good versus the inevitable truth and many more dishonorable ways. Many who are into the occult burn incense as well as many in churches.  See the connection?

Jeremiah 6:16
Thus saith YHWH,
Stand ye in the ways, and see,
and ask for the old paths,
where is the good way,
and walk therein,
and ye shall find rest for your souls.
But they said, We will not walk therein

*Modern Christianity, Catholicism, Judaisim, Orthodoxy and all religions.  Each Mock YHWH!  No matter how pure they may appear upon entering, the adversary has tainted every corner.  Hence we must seek the face of YHWH and solely YHWH.

Psalm 27:8
When thou saidst, Seek ye my face;
my heart said unto thee, Thy face, YHWH, will I seek.

Job 12:12
With the ancient is wisdom;
and in length of days understanding.

*Once YHWH confirms to the seeker the many wrongs inherited by our ancestors, a greater understanding will take place upon obedience to His Word.

In summary, the ancient paths, the ancient wisdom to be sought out is not being adhered to during modern times.  Though there are several religions based on ancient ways, as man has progressed through generations, temples and churches must heed the call of the almighty dollar to keep themselves alive.  Due to this, within some true teachings are also new ways to keep memberships growing throughout all religions of the world. Thus altering the simple laws of YHWH.

Luke 16:13
No servant can serve two masters:
for either he will hate the one, and love the other;
or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other.
Ye cannot serve YHWH and mammon.

We all know that YHWH does not ever change, so why have His ways been altered to tickle modern man’s ears?
Remember this, the adversary has worked for thousands of years to insure the Children of YHWH stumble. To insure they will fall and be guilty of false worship.  The adversary was there from the very beginning and has a great hatred towards humanity.  A grand jealousy.  So for one who has such resentment for us, why do so many insist on following the paths of destruction verses the  path of wisdom?  I tell you this! Because the adversary has come before them as an angel of light.  For few test the spirits and instead run with the feel good warmth that satan loves to give.

We, modern man, have been born into deep trickery and deception.  Born into the inherited lies of our ancestors who thought it wise to change dates, times and ways.  Yet YHWH states loudly, do NOT do such things.

Proverbs 24:21-22
My son, fear thou YHWH and the king:
and meddle not with them that are given to change:
For their calamity shall rise suddenly;
and who knoweth the ruin of them both?

Malachi 3:6
For I am YHWH, I change not;
therefore ye sons of Jacob are not consumed.

And here is the warning for those of us who DO follow the old ways and seek Ancient Wisdom

Daniel 7:25
And he shall speak great words against the most High,
and shall wear out the saints of the most High,
and think to change times and laws:
and they shall be given into his hand until a time and times and the dividing of time

It is up to the individual to seek the truth of our Creator.
It is up to the individual to choose, with their Free Will, the altered ways of man or to choose YHWH.
It is up to us to share the warning of Jeremiah 8:8 and spark the interest into seeking the truth and tossing out the blatant lies being utilized as “Faith Preaching” today.

Psalm 74:10
O Elohim, how long shall the adversary reproach?
shall the enemy blaspheme thy name for ever?

When YHWH enters in, eyes and hearts are deeply changed.  The tug of war that the adversary begins on the new seeker can be very intense and can easily thwart the reborn child of YHWH.  For those of us whom have walked similar paths, we can aid others in their seeking.  We must lead by example and not falter in our thinking because of peer pressure.  For the weak will fall into the peer pressure tactics.  It happens daily.  The war is not beginning, it has been here for a LONG time.  So grab your armour and keep marching forward!

1Peter 5:8
Be sober, be vigilant;
because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion,
walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:

Faith Amongst Inherited Lies


Hebrews 13:6
So that we may boldly say, YHWH is my helper,
and I will not fear what man shall do unto me

There is a saying: That which doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.
It’s a survivors quote that gives strength to many who endure many trials and tribulations in their lives.
And often times, when in personal turmoils, the mainstream media and all its hooplah causes deeper depression in those who are struggling to keep their heads a float.  This being said, as Children of YHWH, I believe that many of us are aware of the effects that media and grouping together of people plays in the general decision making of the public.  We can watch programmed behaviors, parroted responses and stifled free thinking abound.

It appears there are only 2 rational responses from those who are not free from the lies inherited.  A black answer or a white answer.  Anything in between is considered crazy or insane.
Oh have they programmed humanity well!

Within the past few days, Minister QuietBuck and I have been watching more of the ISIS ordeal, planetary changes videos and the propaganda being thrown at millions of people through visual media.  It is fear mongering stepping up for the umpteenth time.  They ramp it up, then it dies off only to be ramped up again. That beautiful chaotic circle that keeps millions entranced.  Make a web search on crisis actors…a new world may be opened up to you! (But also know that within that search will be many deceptions as well.)

We have seen so many “Predictions” not come true, yet the passion of the vloggers, talk shows, news commentaries etc. are and have been pushing that fear factor continuously.  Yet not once in any of the fear mongering do we hear anything positive to focus on.  These are focused on fear and chaos and not of healing or truly peaceful solutions. Instead these venues are used against the citizens of the world.  People are fighting each other over opinions and more division is being created on a regular basis. Yet who truly holds the facts?  Who knows for a fact that these situations are true? Can we really put our faith in governments and leaders?  Can we trust the individuals we see on TV who say they are witnesses? Too many do and then get disappointed over and over again, yet can not see the pattern.

It is war on the Muslims again. Christians are being persecuted, Catholicism wants its children to return home,  Save Israel, kill the Palestinians bla bla bla. Bad weather, polar vortex, rumbling volcanoes,earthquakes, animal & fish die offs, droughts, Ebola, vaccines, stem cell research,GMOs, cloning, abortions and countless other agendas. And yet there will be even more to come.

Matthew 24 gives us warnings of events yet to happen, telling the reader not to fear, as it must happen.  And still it is not the end.

And ye shall hear of wars and rumours of wars:
see that ye be not troubled:
for all these things must come to pass,
but the end is not yet.
For nation shall rise against nation,
and kingdom against kingdom:
and there shall be famines,
and pestilences,
and earthquakes, in divers places.
All these are the beginning of sorrows.

Matthew 24 can be pretty intimidating and down right scary to those who have watched for decades the decline of societies throughout the world.  Even those who feel they are of sound faith can be shaken up to the core.

Matthew 24:36
But of that day and hour knoweth no man,
no, not the angels of heaven, but my Father only.

We can also see that many are trying to predict when Nibiru will damage the earth, the breakdown of the grid, when the economy will crash, when WWIII will begin, putting up videos of beheadings, martial law, FEMA camps, rapture wars, satanism on the rise etc. etc.  Are they trying to increase the vibration of fear around the planet to feed off of, or are they just moving their Risk game pieces around again? No matter what it is, it is causing inner panic for many who are glued to their tv sets or internet boxes on current events.  Yet for all the major predictions through the years, none have come to pass as predicted. How many lies must we inherit before we all wake up?

It isn’t anything new.  There is nothing new under the sun.  And realistically speaking, the intentions to create chaos work wonderfully. The order out of chaos theory.  And as certain characters are pumped up or dragged through the mud, very little changes are for the better. People lose faith or cling to false realities.  Hmmmm. Think about that for a moment.

Presidents are always failing, media controls thoughts and people are raging at each other defending their opinions in all that invades their minds.  It truly is an ingenious plan to keep people distracted from what is really happening.  What an amazing way to keep division around the planet! Lets make cultures hate each other.  Lets pummel citizens around the world with propaganda to ensure the hate continues. And then, the icing on the cake…lets all join together in peace under a One world religion/government.  Oh yes, that will solve all the worlds problems!  Lets all do as thou will and not care about consequences.  Even low level witches know that if one casts a spell for personal gain that it can burn them in the end. It is a great warning to those who delve into witchcraft.  And yet the spells have been cast and minds altered.  I suppose the powers that be think that if we all self implode or destroy each other, the stresses of their plotting will be lessened. Ah the adversary.  Perhaps to the simple mind it truly is ingenious.  But to the opened mind, the illusion of altered ways  are really the same ploys that have been utilized for centuries. The difference?  New, and what they think are improved, characters being used to instill fear. Again, nothing new under the sun.

There is a freedom in individual understanding and an imprisonment in herd mentality.  How many pens must people be steered into before they truly see?  Sadly, I tend to believe, the herd mentality is so programmed, only a mere few will see what is really happening to them.

So in conclusion, Do Not Fear!  Weed out the inherited lies and chaos theories!
These are definitely difficult times, but we are not the first generations to deal with such insanity.
Our job is to show others how to understand the lies and webs of confusion.  How to seek our Heavenly Father and not follow the chaos theory of religions.  You are the temple, You carry within yourself the free will to follow YHWH or to follow the ways of man.  You are the one who allows the brainwashing to enter in or can slap it in the face and push it away!  Once the understanding comes, fear will no longer be a factor.  So prepare your house. Inner and outter.  For we just may see the time where we must hide ourselves for a little while.  Close those eyes when it happens and look not at the world.  For a great message was given in Indiana Jones Raiders of the Lost Ark.  When the ark was opened, Indiana and his female partner were tied to a pole.  He told her, do not open your eyes! With both of them tied together, eyes closed tight,the reapers came out and destroyed everyone around them.  They were not touched nor disintegrated and they were freed from the ropes.

So may be the days of darkness.  So protect yourselves and your houses.
Prepare for the worst and hope for the best!
Let not the world deceive you nor man instill fear in your heart!

Proverbs 29:25
The fear of man bringeth a snare:
but whoso putteth his trust in YHWH shall be safe

Why So Quiet


Hi everybody!

As you know, I have been struggling with fibromyalgia for the past 5 months. It has been an eye opening experience in many ways.

When my daughters and I returned from Greece 4 years ago, we all had a lot of healing to do. While there, I learned who YHWH is.  Without influence of churches,  Internet, and personal opinions for many periods.

I felt very close to YHWH.  So close it  broke my heart to leave my special spots next to the Aegean Sea. Especially the spot where I found the stone which  carries a message within its letters upon it.

Upon returning to the land I was born in, the 4 of us felt lost, sad and had a difficult time trusting many.  I did not feel YHWH for quite some time. Not the way I did in Greece.  However, He always let me know He is there. And truth be told, I rebelled quite abit while I tried to hold strong for my 3 daughters.  I cried a lot of tears missing what was left behind. Much like Lot’s wife. I understand that story now. I understand it to my core.

So as I have been home these past 5 months, we lost 2 beloved pets that were very intertwined in our lives. We have dealt with numerous doctors and SSI, etc. Nothing takes the pain away.  It is worse instead of better.

Now many may say, YHWH struck her down. And maybe He did. Either way,  I have gained quite a bit of insight within this time period.  From deeper understanding of the spiritual war and how I can easily fall into the adversaries traps and tricks. I have been able to fully forgive a few people in my life. Including my biological mother, who now knows The Name and uses it.  And all this has happened because I was struck down.

I never get angry at YHWH.  I only got upset when our pets each died rather suddenly.  But I also can grasp the lessons within their lives with us. That was my flesh crying in selfishness of wanting them to live longer for our pleasure.

I thank YHWH every day for allowing me to see many of my downfalls and weaknesses.  Not to mention where I hold onto pride and ego. The woman who held strong for the majority of her life has to be humbled some more. Washed clean. Some of the scrubbing really hurt, and some still hurts, but I will accept this new journey.

As Minister QuietBuck always tells me…it’s time to slow down, we aren’t 20 anymore. That truly is my biggest battle. For it is extremely difficult for me to depend on others. Even typing this on my tablet, my hands shake and double tap many times.  Something that is new to me and quite honestly, if I let it, would frustrate me to a grand degree. Instead I quietly fix the errors and continue on with the post.  Patience.  A great lesson Mrs. QuietBuck tends to battle quite often.

So, these are the reasons I have been quiet here. How can I aid anyone if I can’t aid my own spirit? Walking through this with YHWH always on my mind and trying to figure out some puzzles He has me trying to solve,  keeps me away for a brief while.

I am being humbled in more ways than one. I wouldn’t trade it for the world!


There are those of you who are walking the lonely path with YHWH. Remember, you are a light in the midst of a world filled with darkness. You are loved and needed. The path is one of endurance and obedience mixed with faith. As our ancestors before us, we must proclaim the beauty of YHWH,
His wisdom and mercy. It is not in vain.

In His Service,

Oh for the glory of YHWH, I shall not be weary!

Glorious Day

Hi all!

Today is a glorious day in YHWH. Every day is a glorious day in YHWH!!!

As many of you know, I have been battling Fibromyalgia. It’s been quite the journey this past 3 1/2 months as I never know what type of pain day I will have when I wake up each morning. I feel blessed, nonetheless. Last night we bought a 3 wheeled walker for the house and today came my wheelchair.

This morning, I returned home from an appointment, and as I parked our car in the garage, along came the Fed-Ex man. Perfect timing! I can honestly say, I never thought I’d be excited about getting a wheelchair. Mind you, it’s not a FT mobility item. Rather it is for when we go out food shopping or on errands and we know we will be out for several hours. I cannot trust my legs anymore nor my balance with my legs getting ridiculously tired so easily now. Once I start using it, I plan on learning to do wheelies! Oh yes I do!

Okay, maybe not right away, but the thought sounds fun! For even as I type this, my neck feels like it is on fire,my fingertips feel as if I placed them all on medium hot burners while the Incredible Hulk is squeezing my palms and dare I have the energy to scream “MERCY!!!” So perhaps wheelies won’t be my first attempts. (Maybe in the next week or so…Oh Yes!!!)

See, what I am learning about this fibrowhosamacallit, is that it shows random behaviors. It can behave itself or it can flare up into full tantrums. It can burn like fire, or cut like a knife. It can smack you upside the head or hit you with a baseball bat. It can walk away gracefully or come at you kicking and screaming. It does what it does and through all its colors and faces, each person has learned to carry a strength inside to deal with it. I try to carry a smiling face with a smiling voice. And like everyone, sometimes just trying to smile can be very painful. And here is where I am grateful. For YHWH is perfect. He has made each of us. He has given us each free will. To love Him or love the world. I have chosen Him. And because of that, no matter the pain, I still feel and have a freedom inside me that overtakes any pain and any situation. I can burn in pain, as I am right now, and instead of getting upset about it, say thank you for allowing me these experiences. Experiences I would not have if I were perfectly healthy. I get to explore a new way of living now. And know what? I thought I would be scared and upset, but I am not. I know I have YHWH. It is those who don’t know Him that I pray for. For it is better to know our Creator and be handicapped than to be in perfect health and not know Him at all.

YHWH be with you!!!

Here is a video I made this morning after watching several Fibro videos. One young man in particular touched my heart…as this is not a fun disease, he helped me to connect possibly how long I have had this. It’s funny how we do realize things, but they don’t sink in until something hits a nerve or spark inside that says….Oh…Yea, I forgot about that!!! Well, this young man set off a series of memories of High School and the pains I had not only in gym class but even outside of school at friends etc.

YHWH works through anyone and anything,and I thank Him for pointing out a few things for me today through that young man!

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