Daily Archives: October 3, 2012

A Response To Questions

Through my years as a believer, I have spoken with many men and women who are trying to get closer to YHWH.  I regularly get questions such as…

“How did you get the faith in YHWH you have today?”
“Why are you so strong in YHWH?”
“How did you learn His Name?”
“How can you hear YHWH and know it is Him?”

To be honest, in the beginning it was very difficult.  I probably ran with every “Non Me” thought believing it was Him speaking.  And yes, I did run with them.

Around 1997 a lot of life changes were happening.  I believed  every good thing that happened to me was “because of my Heavenly Father”.  Therefore I ran and ran with what I thought was listening to Him.  However, I was still drinking  milk.

Isaiah 28:9 Whom shall he teach knowledge? and whom shall he make to understand doctrine? them that are weaned from the milk, and drawn from the breasts.

It’s funny how while drinking milk, we can believe with all our hearts that we are deep into the meat of YHWH.

Mid 2000, I was moved away from every single thing I knew.  My country, my language, my family and friends.  A stranger in a strange land.  Nothing was making any sense to me.  It was unusual circumstances that took me there.  During that time, I was at an all point low.  I was angry, confused and extremely depressed.  I wanted to know Why I was there.  After feeling so black inside, I got to the anger point of cursing “God” and demanding to know why I was there.  In my fury, I demanded to know why, what was going to be done about it and fix it!  I was an ignorant believer in something greater than myself, however I was not sure what it was or who I was believing in.

Well, a few days later, a man came to my door selling calendars for 1000 drachmas. (about $2.50)  I did not have even that at the time, but I had a 500 dxma bill ($1.25 or so).  He gave it to me anyways.  It was a calendar with the Christian holidays.  On the cover was a common picture of  Jesus with a white gown and red sash over his shoulders.  Immediately after I closed the door and turned towards my livingroom, I heard clearly in my head…

Revelation 3:20  “Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.”

This got my interest sparked.  And I mean Sparked!  For I took it as  I opened the door and in came this religious figure.  One I’d not really cared for.

From that moment on, I began reading scripture and delving in as much as I could to learn everything I could about our Creator.  At that point in time, I had not known His Name.  That would come years later.  However, during the time in between, I was sent on many wild journeys. Each one was training me to learn to truly listen to Him and discern truth from fables.  And did I ever learn, we are taught oh so many fables!

One thing I did is this.  I asked Him to teach me as a Dad would his infant.  To make it easier for me to understand.  Once I asked this, amazing things began to happen.  It seemed almost daily for several years, something phenomenal was happening.  Due to that, with joy, I shared my exciting new journey with everyone I knew who was struggling in their own faith, as well as others who were going through similar experiences.  It was the beginning of my true faith journey.  And then one day it was His Name.

Minister QB was only a friend at the time.  He tried to share with me his own journey on learning the Name YHWH.  I inwardly poo pooed him regarding what he had shown me.  I had to learn it on my own. The rebellious child I tend to become refused to listen to any human. I wanted no influence from my friend, any church,  priest or any man, woman or child.  So I asked YHWH to show me.  And He did. Brilliantly, YHWH showed me His Name in Paleo Hebrew. Revealing to me His Name in a way I’d grasp and understand.  The moment I lay my eyes upon it, I felt for the first time in my life that I had found Home!!!  My entire life changed to a new level and new heights I never imagined.  As well, I had more opposition than I ever would  experience in my life!  The closer I got to YHWH, the more people would try to slam me down.  He  continued to reveal His Word to me for strength.  Psalms became an integral part of my life.

It took feeling so low as if life were over and I was done, for me to go to Him as I was.  An angry, confused, furious woman doing the best she could to survive in chaotic surroundings.  It took screaming out some pretty foul things at Him and stating I won’t believe anymore in You.  Well, from that time on  I had to go through many excruciating lessons to understand what is Him speaking and not my own thoughts or that of the instigator, as I like to call him.

We women can often end up in a whirlwind trying to do the  right thing.  Being the passionate creatures we are, it is easy to trip up. Running to friends or family to have them confirm things for us.  Sadly, all that does is keep us within the walls of a tornado.

It is silencing ones own mind, going out into nature and just listening to the sounds.  Talking with YHWH as if talking to your best friend.  For learning to focus is so extremely important.  YHWH has always shown me things 3 times to confirm to me it is truly Him.  Confirmation with scripture is the nail on the head to finalize my understanding.  If it can’t be lined up with scripture, it is usually not of YHWH.  At least in my experiences.  We must also realize how important it is to remember: 2Corinthians 11:14 And no marvel; for Satan himself is transformed into an angel of light. Therefore, once your eyes are opened, target practice becomes imminent from the other side.  1John 4:1 Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of YHWH: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.  

My favorite confirmation is a stone I found.  A few weeks before my children and I were to return to America, I was walking along the beach outside our last home.  There were millions of stones along the shoreline.  Suddenly I looked down and found a stone with His Name on it.  It jumped out at me.  Begging for me to pick it up.  I held tight to that stone and still have it through today.

Revelation 2:17 He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the assemblies; To him that overcometh will I give to eat of the hidden manna, and will give him a white stone, and in the stone a new name written, which no man knoweth saving he that receiveth it.

In honesty, throughout my journey, I had fallen into many snares.  And gratefully, YHWH would show me the wrongs.  Lessons I had to learn to stand where I am now.  Learning to block out man’s teachings and becoming dependent upon YHWH in all ways can be quite a trial.  Erasing the slate, so to speak.  For our brains want to bring in everything we ever heard or were taught about an Almighty Creator.  Instead, I learned I had to go straight to our Creator and humble myself before Him.  Asking  for help in learning to focus and to listen.

For some it is easy I suppose.  For me, it was a difficult road to travel upon.  I wouldn’t give it up for the world.  For without that difficult road, I’d not have the faithfulness to YHWH that I have today. A mere servant struggling to follow YHWH the way He wants and not the way I want.


A lesson from YHWH

Close to 3 years ago, my daughters and I had a major life change happen to us.  During this time, I had so much on my mind and I was shaken to the core that I’d be returning to America.  I’d been gone for so long and was scared about how I’d take care of us all.  While I was in an inner panic, I went into prayer to YHWH.

It was one of those surreal moments where I saw nothing, heard nothing yet was shown such a dramatic amount of things.  So how does one explain this?  How do you explain seeing so much, yet there were no visuals per say?  How do you explain that you felt it and through feeling was able to see?

I made the video below in hopes to share the message I was given.  Yet, I feel the video only shows a good portion.  The main message I believe is the fact that far too many are running around believing they are giving glory to YHWH, but in fact are doing the exact opposite.  Instead giving to the enemy of souls what belongs solely to YHWH.  Our amazing Creator is so easy to understand if only we allow ourselves to listen to Him.

The Scripture below is what I was led to upon asking to give me more details. As I wanted to hear honestly and clearly.

Isaiah 65

I am sought of them that asked not for me; I am found of them that sought me not: I said, Behold me, behold me, unto a nation that was not called by my name.

I have spread out my hands all the day unto a rebellious people, which walketh in a way that was not good, after their own thoughts;

A people that provoketh me to anger continually to my face; that sacrificeth in gardens, and burneth incense upon altars of brick;

Which remain among the graves, and lodge in the monuments, which eat swine’s flesh, and broth of abominable things is in their vessels;

Which say, Stand by thyself, come not near to me; for I am holier than thou. These are a smoke in my nose, a fire that burneth all the day.

Behold, it is written before me: I will not keep silence, but will recompense, even recompense into their bosom,

Your iniquities, and the iniquities of your fathers together, saith יהוה, which have burned incense upon the mountains, and blasphemed me upon the hills: therefore will I measure their former work into their bosom.

Thus saith יהוה, As the new wine is found in the cluster, and one saith, Destroy it not; for a blessing is in it: so will I do for my servants’ sakes, that I may not destroy them all.

And I will bring forth a seed out of Jacob, and out of Judah an inheritor of my mountains: and mine elect shall inherit it, and my servants shall dwell there.

And Sharon shall be a fold of flocks, and the valley of Achor a place for the herds to lie down in, for my people that have sought me.

But ye are they that forsake יהוה, that forget my holy mountain, that prepare a table for that troop, and that furnish the drink offering unto that number.

Therefore will I number you to the sword, and ye shall all bow down to the slaughter: because when I called, ye did not answer; when I spake, ye did not hear; but did evil before mine eyes, and did choose that wherein I delighted not.

Therefore thus saith the Master יהוה , Behold, my servants shall eat, but ye shall be hungry: behold, my servants shall drink, but ye shall be thirsty: behold, my servants shall rejoice, but ye shall be ashamed:

Behold, my servants shall sing for joy of heart, but ye shall cry for sorrow of heart, and shall howl for vexation of spirit.

And ye shall leave your name for a curse unto my chosen: for the Master יהוה shall slay thee, and call his servants by another name:

That he who blesseth himself in the earth shall bless himself in the Elohim of truth; and he that sweareth in the earth shall swear by the Elohim of truth; because the former troubles are forgotten, and because they are hid from mine eyes.

For, behold, I create new heavens and a new earth: and the former shall not be remembered, nor come into mind.

But be ye glad and rejoice for ever in that which I create: for, behold, I create Jerusalem a rejoicing, and her people a joy.

And I will rejoice in Jerusalem, and joy in my people: and the voice of weeping shall be no more heard in her, nor the voice of crying.

There shall be no more thence an infant of days, nor an old man that hath not filled his days: for the child shall die an hundred years old; but the sinner being an hundred years old shall be accursed.

And they shall build houses, and inhabit them; and they shall plant vineyards, and eat the fruit of them.

They shall not build, and another inhabit; they shall not plant, and another eat: for as the days of a tree are the days of my people, and mine elect shall long enjoy the work of their hands.

They shall not labour in vain, nor bring forth for trouble; for they are the seed of the blessed of יהוה , and their offspring with them.

And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear.

The wolf and the lamb shall feed together, and the lion shall eat straw like the bullock: and dust shall be the serpent’s meat. They shall not hurt nor destroy in all my holy mountain, saith יהוה .

The Path

Psalm 139:3
Thou compassest my path and my lying down,
and art acquainted with all my ways.

The story of a man’s dream and a realization that forever changed his life.


Psalm 61

Psalm 61

Hear my cry, O Elohim; attend unto my prayer.

From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

For thou hast been a shelter for me, and a strong tower from the enemy.

I will abide in thy tabernacle for ever: I will trust in the covert of thy wings. Selah.

For thou, O Elohim, hast heard my vows: thou hast given me the heritage of those that fear thy name.

Thou wilt prolong the king’s life: and his years as many generations.

He shall abide before Elohim for ever: O prepare mercy and truth, which may preserve him.

So will I sing praise unto thy name for ever, that I may daily perform my vows.

Unclean Animal List

Leviticus 11:47
To make a difference between the unclean and the clean,
and between the beast that may be eaten and the beast that may not be eaten.

My husband and I have been focused on cleaning our house.  Our shelter house, our inner house and our physical house.   First we began with idols, which has been a process and still is.  Mixed into that we researched into clothing.  Another item we are still working on.  And for more reasons than one, our food intake.

I have suffered from severe headaches since I was about 5 years old.  In the past I have seen countless doctors, had MRI’s, CT scans…tried every top medication for migraines etc.  Not a single thing worked.  Therefore, I gave up.  Literally gave up and had succumb to the fact that I would suffer the rest of my days in pain.  I also struggle with digestive issues.  I was able to change my diet enough to prevent GERD outbreaks and severe heartburn amidst other annoying aches and pains.  However, they did not take away the headaches.

My husband began to pay very close attention and ruled out many items.  Then one day  he happened upon high acid diets and the results.  Therefore, I have been very focused as of late on balancing the intake of alkaline and acid within my diet.  Which by far, I have seen the best results.  Especially with headaches.

As we continue our studies on diet and health, we reflected back upon times we looked up the clean and unclean foods.  We knew about swine/pork, shell fish etc.  But never really saved or copied the entire listing of foods scripture tells us to abstain from.  Until recently, we have tried to be better at food, however were not solely focused upon it as we are now.

The above photo gives a list of unclean foods.  If you research each item listed, there is plenty of information as to why these foods are not good for us.  How they can effect our heart, blood, liver, energy levels,colon, cause cancer etc. etc.  Scripture never lies…and has proven itself over and over to us.  Confirming that YHWH knows exactly what He is doing and why.  Not only confirming that, but confirming the Word is true!

I find it the best research we have done lately.  We know raw foods keep their energy frequency and if steamed lose a percentage.  If cooked a good majority of the energy we need for our systems is removed.  As we are filled with energy from the foods we do consume, is it not wise to ensure we are feeding our body with foods that cleanse, heal and rejuvenate rather than filled with items that can harm us?

Research the animals listed above and see how many are consumed in your own home. (Excluding the obvious ones such as elephants and gorillas)  But also understand many animals  such as elephants are within many common products that we use as well.  This task can be quite an overwhelming one to take upon oneself.  However, once the knowledge is gained and understood, it is well worth the effort.  I will say this, I certainly feel better for it!

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